Let Go...

I'd beg you to not go...that I changed my mind and want you here....that my life without you is empty...that all of this whole breakup mess was a mistake and I wish so much that it would work and you'd stay..but I'm being naive and whimsical ...

I realize...that I can't keep begging...pleading for you...that I have to let you go...

And it hurts to worry and think about what's going to happen when you go.... So afraid that you will never see me or talk to me again...that you'll not even miss me or give me a moments thought...that ill just be a fading memory to you...

I'm trying to not let the fear control me..

I have to let go of you..I have to say goodbye to all that was and could be...and see and accept where we are now... I have to let go the past and try and look to the future...and pick up my own broken pieces...

I have to let go my feelings for you so we can relax and start normal again...