A Voice in the dark- Intuition

She knew... a discovery of intuition and instinct Perhaps it was past time for her to speak-

She waited in silence..

Anticipating what would come next..

She wasn’t blind to it...not stupid or naive - trying to be numb...in denial that things aren’t what they seem

Heart heavy- she waited- patiently for the truth to unfold

Perhaps she was wrong, perhaps her own fears have been tormenting her

But her gut instinct told her-

She wasn’t wrong… she knew- about what he had done

It was only a matter of time - they think they were sly

Guilty conscience will be their undoing

Pride and ego suffocating and blinding - chained to themselves and their own demise

Lost to the decision made that ruined their integrity- a cheating heart disguised but revealed in their lies

His heart burdened at unrest- unsure where to go or what to do next

Sleeplessness

Fear will grip them- doubting if he’d made a bad choice-a mistake- down the wrong path

Heart and logic battling- internal conflict has been afflicting

To afraid to speak the truth...perhaps he’s too confused

Yet she already knew-

Knew what weighed on him so heavy

Knew he’d been distracted in 3rd party - investing his heart in many

Forgetting she was right in front of him-

His Heart and mind out partying

Out of sigh out of mind- neglected and tossed her to the side

Smoke in the mirror..

While she waits...

Loving with a temperance - a one-sided unconditional love for him

Giving her heart over on a platter- vulnerable and open- hoping

Feeling the disconnect -trying to hold her tongue and give respect

Now it’s all been convoluted- how much has been swept under the rug to boths undoing

Both afraid to speak the truth- of the conflict and abuse

Heart heavy in anxiety

Wondering what happens next - both struggling to express

She was tormented -

Distance showing his heart was elsewhere-was it a one-night mistake or who they want to be- an old player to sensual mystery

Having looks and self-image is their necessity

Codependent on things that will erase reality

Numbing them to their actions of instability

Going around In arrogance and immaturity

Focused on those with no stability - side chic whores to their whim of sexual diversity

Or was it more than that-

was their heart split in half-

deciding who is their better half

Is there heart yearning for another - while I give mine over and over

Maybe someone they can’t have...perhaps someone already tethered -whose spouse will find out sooner or later

Or maybe a torment from the past - begging for them to take them back

Maybe just no longer feeling- and wanting to explore other options

She waits...while they contemplate in silence.

Painfully strung along while they choose- knowing she can’t compete against a pretty face

Competition to who they want – will she be replaced

Sloppy-seconds to their feelings for another body and face- misplaced in a side chic whore

Them - an aged player and eventual disgrace

He contemplates- testing the waters...toying with his food - thinking ‘is she worth all my hours?’

Blinded to the things she’s done- forgetting why they even fell in love-distracted by the devils temptation

She knew- was waiting - for a confession Terrorized for speaking her truths- her perception battered and bruised

Not sure if she’s right or wrong- fearing to speak up or explain her thoughts

Put down for having a voice

Yearning for some loving reciprocation - instead she gets emotional manipulation

Hoping in honest communication- wanting to forgive even though there was a secret and indiscretion

Longing to rebuild the connection - start new and fresh like a reset button

The only way forward is both providing transparency, admission, truth, apologies...forgiveness

She waits...hoping for reprieve

Truth will set them both mentally and emotionally free

Hoping he still loves her even after 3rd party

His Ego and Pride pushing her at a distance

She didn’t understand how he could be so emotionally dismissive

Wondering if there’s love anymore after all that’s been hidden

Thinking he’s still tampering in indiscretion- hoping the side piece opens up in frustration

Revealing the truth - so we’re free from deception

His Ego and pride lies with gaslighting deflection

Until then…I await longing for clarification

Focused on healing my broken reflections

A Voice in the Dark

#TheArchive 2017

~Epiphany~