Shroud

I feel the darkness coming....approaching in familiar ways... I can’t escape....it stifles my breathing....closes around my heart... It’s weight pulling me down... I’m trying to fight it off...trying to look past its depth into the light ahead... Ohhh...how the light warms me...comforts me...completes me...how I long to be enraptured in its illuminating depths....forevermore... But Fear takes over me...Doubts control my senses...I am lost... I feel too much.. Ache too much.... Recklessly falling....mind tormented by assumptive thoughts... It pains me...to where I am blinded to serenity... Like poison it begins to seep in....threatening to take over me...knowing it will push away the source of my reprieve... Terrified to to feel it lurching up like a slow motion horror movie...barely catching myself from falling into the shroud... Can I escape it this time and reach the warm blaze that calls from beyond the looming blackness...? What am I willing to do...to keep that light close...to reach it leaving the darkness behind...and will it still be there waiting for me when I finally reach it?