Today’s Epiphany…

As I’m ‘soul searching’… I’ve realized something….

I miss myself…lol…who I am …who I used to be….

Strange isn’t it…when said that way…makes no sense. But …I miss parts of me that I have not been for a long while…

All these things are a part of me…what makes me who I am…my joys that keep me at peace and centered..things that give me part of my identity as a person…

I miss karaoke …and going out dancing…the free feeling of euphoria and utter happiness I get from both…A reminder that both ARE a deep part of who I AM…

I miss music blaring in my home and dancing in my living room…or giving into my writing…

I miss being loud and obnoxious when watching TV…and laughing at myself until my chest hurts…but my heart feels on high from it…

I miss video gaming…miss getting so absorbed in a games story that all other things melt away, and you’re taken to a whole nother place…

I miss the quiet…the solace…feeling connected to God and to life around me…of not having to overthink, stress, worry or feel...

I miss who I AM…I miss feeling like me, feeling comfortable, feeling happy and at peace…

That's my own fault tho..

I put myself aside for people for so long…to fit in, to be accepted, to please the other person, to make others happy…that I forgot what it means to just be…me.

Instead I’ve elapsed…neglected my own self…which effects those around me...

But in all that… I find.. I love who I am…Good and Bad…I adore how I think and feel and communicate.(One person told me I talk in poetry LOL-not a surprise seeing how I write!)

I wouldn’t change anything about me…but instead perfect (as much as I can) my imperfections, get rid of bad habits (habits don’t define you) and become a better person…a stronger, independent woman…so that I can truly be me and give to others and not lose myself in it!

I am unique…there is no other woman like me….and I am grateful and appreciative of that :)

So after this Epiphany…time to pull myself back out again :)

I look forward to sharing and exploring this journey with my Joshie by my side :)